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So depressed right now. I don't think I'm gonna be able to sleep tonight because today I found out that yet another YouTube channel I'd found out about (thanks to Quidd) and kinda wanted to check out eventually is controversial - SSSniperWolf. And knowing about this makes me keep thinking about the Etika and cobanermani456 things again and worrying that I'll be hated for liking any of these channels, or wanting to see more of their videos (or any of their videos, as I haven't actually watched SSSniperWolf yet). Same thing with YouTube channels that became controversial before this year like PewdiePie and JonTron...

Are any of you going to dislike or judge me for wanting to see these channels? If not, please say so even if you feel like you'd be repeating something you've already said. I can't take this depression much longer...

Could someone more emotionally stable than me please research what these controversies are really all about and tell me what actually happened? (EDIT: I should clarify, I mean aside from the PewdiePie and JonTron ones as I think I know what those were about... but is it lame that I had no idea until I asked someone about those?) I've tried looking them up myself but didn't get far because a) it made me depressed easily and b) I know that I'm going to hear at least two sides to each story and not know which one is actually true, and be hated if I think the one that isn't true is true (which I'm told I have done already regarding cobanermani456).

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anewdream4xmas
Dec. 30th, 2018 08:58 am (UTC)
I have sent you a direct message. I will not stop caring about you for that. Come on, Sweetie. We are better than this. I like some Felix (PewDiePie) once in a while. ♥

Edited at 2018-12-30 09:00 am (UTC)
remmingtonglock
Dec. 30th, 2018 02:02 pm (UTC)

Hugs 💓

glowing_dragon
Dec. 31st, 2018 06:08 am (UTC)
You have two more days to worry about being hated or judged for liking what you like. I will not hate or judge you for it. :)
matt1993
Dec. 31st, 2018 06:29 am (UTC)
:)

If you're referring to my New Year's resolution, I think I gave up on that anyway. The past couple of days have meant that I clearly am going to sometimes just need to vent in here about things I'm worried about, so I will just have to keep doing that. Probably more than 12-48 times a year.

Do you know about the YouTube channels in question, and if so, what are your thoughts on them? I think it'd help if I knew. :)

Edited at 2018-12-31 06:31 am (UTC)
glowing_dragon
Dec. 31st, 2018 06:32 am (UTC)
I am, but if you're giving up on it because you need to vent anyway, then that is also fine. You know how much you can and can't handle when it comes that. It is good to vent sometimes.

I've heard of the SSSniperWolf channel, but not why it's so controversial. I can ask around - I'm not a Youtuber expert!
matt1993
Dec. 31st, 2018 06:42 am (UTC)
I've heard of the SSSniperWolf channel, but not why it's so controversial. I can ask around - I'm not a Youtuber expert!

What I stumbled on is:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivM9QcS0fzQ

I don't know whether what's in the video is true or not. In fact, I don't even know what's in the video at all because I haven't watched it yet! I just noticed that it looked like something I should worry about, so I went to it, glanced at the comments (yep, looks like people will probably hate me if I watch this channel eventually and like it...), and grabbed the URL and clicked out.
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