July 30th, 2015

painbow

Lorem ipsum drama trigger depression bad memories, gloomy flame war controversy painbow amet. :(

(I hope I don't end up overusing this and my previous entry's style of subject line as much as I overused "When the End Times come, we will all <verb> the <Noun Phrase> of the Apocalypse" back in the day...)


One (I hope) last entry before I actually go through with changing my journal style, because I really don't want this to be the first thing I post about after I change it:


So, a couple of days ago, I Googled "overcoming stress" and found some of these articles, which led me to the rest even though they're not all necessarily about stress:

http://lifehacker.com/5976310/nine-strategies-successful-people-use-to-overcome-stress
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/stress/stress-management.htm
http://lifehacker.com/5945018/to-succeed-forget-self-esteem
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/how-to-stop-worrying.htm
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/07/11/10-practical-ways-to-handle-stress/
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-path-passionate-happiness/201406/overcome-stress-saying-thanks
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/culture-shrink/201507/6-helpful-things-say-depressed-person
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/201507/the-secret-reason-so-many-us-procrastinate
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-path-passionate-happiness/201502/love-yourself-you-love-others
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/07/22/learning-to-let-go-of-past-hurts-5-ways-to-move-on/#at_pco=tst-1.0&at_si=55b8220dbf8b4d99&at_ab=per-2&at_pos=1&at_tot=2
http://blogs.psychcentral.com/nlp/2013/12/10-signs-you-are-emotionally-attached-to-a-negative-past/

These helped me feel a LOT better!... at first.

Then I got to these:

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/04/09/invisible-victims-when-men-are-abused/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/02/11/beware-of-she-wolves/

When I read these, they resonated REALLY well with how I felt about the Forbidden Comment Threads! I thought my depression would be over for good!

...at first.

But then I read the comments on the last two articles. Now, despite having at one point almost completely gotten over my worry about suddenly being hated by everyone, even you guys, if I don't word something very well or it gets misread, I'm now back where I started. Because the comments on those articles suggest - no, prove - that I am a horrible, pathetic excuse for a human being just for feeling the way I feel about the Forbidden Comment Threads. And that I can never be forgiven for ANYTHING. :(