A rejection-sensitivity-based lifeform (matt1993) wrote,
A rejection-sensitivity-based lifeform

The end of the end of the end of the beginning of the end of the beginning

EDIT WAY LATER: It turns out that there are two guys in my college dorm named Mark, so in order to keep things from getting weird if either of them gets a LiveJournal (if they don't have one already) and friend me, I have renamed my possible other personality Mark1993 rather than just Mark.

I did pretty well on my Spanish final. I didn't get to finish translating the whole thing I had written, but I got most of it translated, and it's past the 100-word minimum anyway. My teacher says that I can finish it after Christmas break (and she's allowing 3 of my classmates to do the same). Yay for Christmas break!!

Also, you know how I am easily distracted while listening or reading because any given word or phrase might remind me of something else that I start thinking about instead until it reminds me of something else, and so on - and it also happens just because I'm bored? Well, for a while now I've thought of the kind of mistakes I make while doing that as my subconscious taking over and trying (and almost always failing) to do everything based entirely on instinct like a robot. I've recently started reading The Bird's Nest by Shirley Jackson, which is about a girl with multiple personalities, and I got to thinking: What if I have multiple (or double, at least) personalities, and the robotic/instinct/habit decisions aren't made by my subconscious, but by my other personality?

My possible other personality (I'll call him Mark1993 in case he exists) isn't like most alternate personalities - he rarely says anything, when he does speak he usually only says (normally through a closed mouth) some short phrase that I've been thinking about lately (though when I was younger he was a little more talkative, but still not enough to have a conversation), and he doesn't seem to have free will - but if I had multiple personalities, it would explain a lot. The younger and/or more tired I am at any given time, the more stupid mistakes I make and the less I remember of everything else that happened at that time, which could be due to Mark1993 being more active then and remembering that stuff instead of me. Also, while I was updating my Apocalypse Prediction List of the Apocalypse, twice I wrote down dates without remembering how I came up with them - maybe it was actually Mark1993 who did that?

I took this multiple personalities quiz and got 70% with the average score being 50%, so it could be that I have multiple personalities...

So, do you think that Mark1993 counts as a separate personality even though he does much less than most alternate personalities? I'm probably also going to find a multiple personalities community and ask this there as well.

EDIT: There isn't a multiple personalities community! :( Not one that's in English, anyway - I'm assuming the one with "ru" in the name is in Russian.

Tags: 100, 2, 50, apocalypse, autism, bored, breaks, christmas, classmates, college, communities, distractions, dorms, english, finals, free will, habits, instinct, listening, livejournal, mark1993, mistakes, multiple personality disorder, names, quiz, reading, robots, russian, school's out, shirley jackson, spanish, stupidity, subconscious, teachers, the bird's nest, thinking, translation, weirdness, word count, youth

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