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EDIT WAY LATER: It turns out that there are two guys in my college dorm named Mark, so in order to keep things from getting weird if either of them gets a LiveJournal (if they don't have one already) and friend me, I have renamed my possible other personality Mark1993 rather than just Mark.

I did pretty well on my Spanish final. I didn't get to finish translating the whole thing I had written, but I got most of it translated, and it's past the 100-word minimum anyway. My teacher says that I can finish it after Christmas break (and she's allowing 3 of my classmates to do the same). Yay for Christmas break!!

Also, you know how I am easily distracted while listening or reading because any given word or phrase might remind me of something else that I start thinking about instead until it reminds me of something else, and so on - and it also happens just because I'm bored? Well, for a while now I've thought of the kind of mistakes I make while doing that as my subconscious taking over and trying (and almost always failing) to do everything based entirely on instinct like a robot. I've recently started reading The Bird's Nest by Shirley Jackson, which is about a girl with multiple personalities, and I got to thinking: What if I have multiple (or double, at least) personalities, and the robotic/instinct/habit decisions aren't made by my subconscious, but by my other personality?

My possible other personality (I'll call him Mark1993 in case he exists) isn't like most alternate personalities - he rarely says anything, when he does speak he usually only says (normally through a closed mouth) some short phrase that I've been thinking about lately (though when I was younger he was a little more talkative, but still not enough to have a conversation), and he doesn't seem to have free will - but if I had multiple personalities, it would explain a lot. The younger and/or more tired I am at any given time, the more stupid mistakes I make and the less I remember of everything else that happened at that time, which could be due to Mark1993 being more active then and remembering that stuff instead of me. Also, while I was updating my Apocalypse Prediction List of the Apocalypse, twice I wrote down dates without remembering how I came up with them - maybe it was actually Mark1993 who did that?

I took this multiple personalities quiz and got 70% with the average score being 50%, so it could be that I have multiple personalities...

So, do you think that Mark1993 counts as a separate personality even though he does much less than most alternate personalities? I'm probably also going to find a multiple personalities community and ask this there as well.

EDIT: There isn't a multiple personalities community! :( Not one that's in English, anyway - I'm assuming the one with "ru" in the name is in Russian.


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pathvain_aelien
Dec. 18th, 2010 07:01 am (UTC)
You don't have multiple personalities. Most psychologists agree that the disorder is very, very rare-if it even actually exists. And while you may not realize that something is wrong, the people that see you every day would definitely know-like the Dr. Wright and Aunt Morgan in the book. Or even that episode of X-Files shows how obvious it would be to other people-remember that woman? Trust me, I am absolutely positive that you don't have multiple personalities! :) If your situation that you described was the real disorder, everyone in the world would have multiple personalities. :)

Plus: I just took the quiz as well, and all of those questions could relate to almost an infinite number of syndroms, disorders, or even people without either. All of them could also indicate autism. You can't trust quizzes like this to diagnose anything. Oh, and my score was 80%. But it could just indicate that I am depressed, since most of the questions also relate to that. :)
matt1993
Dec. 18th, 2010 10:13 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I was wondering why the quiz said that I'm more likely to be depressed than other people or something like that when it's supposed to be about multiple personalities.

Though I'm surprised you got 80% as opposed to my 70%, because to me, you never seem to be pessimistic about anything and you always tell me that I'm being too hard on myself.
awehla
Dec. 19th, 2010 07:25 pm (UTC)
Mmm what you do being distracted and thinking of other things and going off in a tangent sounds typical of autistic or OCD behaviour. If you really think you have multiple personalities it's the kind of serious thing you need to see a doctor about. I did laugh when you called your other personality Mark though.

Lisa
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matt1993
Dec. 19th, 2010 07:28 pm (UTC)
I've always known I was autistic, but I thought for a moment that I might have multiple personalities as well. Turns out I don't - pathvain_aelien told me that if I did have multiple personalities, everyone else would be able to tell but I might or might not.
awehla
Dec. 20th, 2010 08:21 pm (UTC)
Interesting. Yeah I knew you were autistic hence I thought what you were describing I thought was probably because of that.

Lisa
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matt1993
Dec. 20th, 2010 08:58 pm (UTC)
:)
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I'm depressed. Because the world is ending and there has not been ANY proof that things will ever get better. I'm unable to think about anything except the fact that the world is ending, no matter how hard I try

I hate, hate, hate, HATE the term "social distancing". And being reminded of the coronavirus in any other way.

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  • 4 Sep 2020, 20:21
    They probably won't be mandatory forever, but you still have to wear them.

    I thought I told you that I DO wear a mask whenever I am required to or am told to. Why are you acting like I don't?…
  • 2 Sep 2020, 17:54
    Looking back at the Spanish Flu pandemic, it obviously wasn't like that forever. I don't know if people had problems with being able to adjust.

    They probably won't be mandatory forever, but you…
  • 2 Sep 2020, 13:42
    well before the pandemic, youre supposed to wash your hands before you eat, and after youve been to the toilet. Or if youve got something on your hands. Thats all.

    With the pandemic, its an add on…
  • 2 Sep 2020, 07:07
    Even before this pandemic I've tried to wash my hands whenever I needed to - but I've never been sure if I'm doing so well enough or often enough. :(
  • 2 Sep 2020, 06:59
    but this is now our new normal.

    As I said to arcadia30 above, I'm tired of hearing "new normal" because it implies that it will be like this forever and/or that I'm a bad person for being unable to…
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