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May 23rd, 2011

Creative tumors @ 12:23 am

Right now I am annoyingly: depressed depressed
Soundtrack: Dr. Mario - Chill

EDOT FOR ANYONE READING THIS AFTER I CHANGED THE TERM TO "CREATIVE VORTEXES": Exactly what I said - due to complaints in asperger about the term "creative tumors", I have renamed the problem I discuss here as "creative vortexes". Which means the MRI metaphor doesn't make as much sense as it used to, but oh well. So, whenever you see "creative tumor" in this entry, pretend it says "creative vortex" instead. :)

One of the biggest problems that my autism causes for me is that, every time I randomly come up with a new creative or somewhat creative idea, it becomes almost impossible for me to think about anything else for a while.

I think the best way to illustrate this is with made-up MRI's of my "creative tumors" from April 11 and 12. (The latter of which is when I wanted to post this, but couldn't because the drawings took so long to make and I kept procrastinating)

The first diagram shows what it's like when it's been a while since I actually came up with a new idea (or an addition to an older one). As you can see, some of the existing ideas still distract me (shown by red text), and some don't (green text); in the same way, I am able to focus on a few more important things (cyan text), but not on others (yellow text).

However, in the second diagram, thanks to a new idea for an April Fool's prank (I'll call large creative tumors like this "super creative tumors"), the only other thing I could even sometimes focus on for a while was my Physics stuff.

I can only have one super creative tumor at a time, although exactly which creative tumor is the super creative tumor switches whenever I come up with a new idea (either an addition to a previous one or something completely new). In fact, this post itself was actually a super creative tumor that replaced the new April Fool's prank.

EDIT: I should clarify that the super creative tumor doesn't always prevent me from focusing on almost everything, like it does in the second diagram - sometimes, the super creative tumor is almost the same size as a regular creative tumor.

EDOT: I have also found that there can, in fact, be more than one creative vortex (not tumor because I wrote this part after I changed the term) at a time.

EDUT: Well, of course there can be more than one creative vortex at a time! In the edot above, I meant more than one super creative vortex. D'OH!!

There are only two ways for me to almost entirely stop being distracted by a creative tumor:

1) Decide that the idea was pointless after all, which makes the creative tumor almost disappear (I do occasionally end up thinking about what could have been). However, I have to truly decide that the idea is pointless; I can't just say to myself, "This is a pointless idea." :P
2) Actually completely make whatever idea it is and put it on LJ or whatever. This gets the creative tumor out of my head completely, although for a while, I am instead distracted by imagining what comments I might get on it.

Unfortunately, as y'all know, I am a HUGE procrastinator. I also have more creative tumors than I used to; back in 8th and 9th grade, the only creative tumors I would have at a time were four new PrtSc Land strips, tops, but now I have so many that I didn't even include all of them in the MRI's. I also didn't include any of my past experiences, which, as you may know, distract me just as often as creative tumors do. Nor did I include all of the things that I have to focus on. So yeah, at this rate I'm definitely not gonna make it in the adult world.

I think Dr. Mario describes it best in this screenshot:

(By the way, I apologize for the fake MRI's being badly-drawn. When you have a bunch of creative tumors and aren't in the mood to procrastinate, you feel obligated to try and get the ideas online as quickly as you can, even if it means your drawing style almost regresses to PrtSc Land style. Also, it is 12:23 AM and I need to get to bed, so I also apologize if this post makes less sense than Homsar talking to CleverBot about PrtSc Land while drunk.)

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Date:May 23rd, 2011 01:35 pm (UTC)
Well done for getting this posted! I'm a procrastinator too, so I sympathize.
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Date:May 23rd, 2011 05:44 pm (UTC)
Date:May 23rd, 2011 03:24 pm (UTC)
This was interesting and these fake MRI's are creative in themselves.

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Date:May 23rd, 2011 05:46 pm (UTC)
Indeed - as I said, once I came up with the idea for this post, it actually distracted me more than the new April Fool's prank did.
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Date:May 27th, 2011 03:20 am (UTC)
I always thought OCD just meant when someone doesn't like when objects aren't perfectly aligned or whatever.

EDIT: Actually, now that I think about it, I'm a little OCD in that sense too, so...maybe. :)

Edited at 2011-05-27 08:30 pm (UTC)

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